Hard at work, NOT

I work Mondays from 7 am- 7 pm and have the rest of the week off to veg. But for some reason I have become the laziest worker since going back to work. Let's be honest here, I hate working and I always have. Just mention the word work, or Job or Career and I'll start crying. Before having a baby, well I should say before getting pregnant, I always thought of myself as a pretty responsible person and a model employee. Always on time (kind of), did everything by the book, gets along with everyone...But now these 12 hour work weeks are a killer.

I was sitting there today just thinking about how different it is at work. I hope no one reading this from Stampin' Up will tell my boss, but I pretty much suck. Sunday nights I'm always thinking of excuses on why I don't need to show up for work the next day, or if I go, why I can leave early. Most the time I will follow through with my responsibility and go in, but it's like pulling teeth. When I talk to people on the phone I'm incredibly nice because I don't really care about their complaints or problems. I will just give them what they need or want and move on. OK, it's not that bad, and I know my boss doesn't think I'm a bad worker. But I wonder if I will ever have that desire to work? I'd imagine all my kids will be grown and out of the house by the time I'm 50. That means I'll have a good 10-15 years before my husband will retire. What will I do? I've been working since I was 16 with only a couple breaks here and there. Both my parents have always worked and I can't imagine staying home not having that kind of responsibility.

I really admire my friends that have graduated college and moved on to real careers. You are my Heroes and I wish I could find a career path I can be that passionate about later in life.